Child of Summer (Part I)

Petals touched with frozen steel
Caught in the repose of flight
Drift upon my heart. A voice
That pierces through the winter breeze,
Cuts me with its frostbite gleam
So soft and warm a death, for snow.

(9 February 2017)

trees
Snowfall at my university, where the weather this semester changed from winter to spring and then back again probably 10 times.

It’s been much too long since I’ve shared any of my poetry with you all. ¬†ūüôā

(And doing so reminds me that I need to write more, so I thank you for your readership.)

Random question for discussion: in the Owl City song “Fireflies”, Adam Young sings that he gets “a thousand hugs from ten thousand lightning bugs”. ¬†Does this mean all 10,000 of them hug him a thousand times, totaling 10,000,000 hugs, or do only 1/10 of them hug him so that 1,000 refers to the net total of the hugs? ¬†Discuss amongst yourselves. ¬†(If you follow me on Twitter, you already know the answer, but I’m curious to hear all of your best, most emphatic, (il)logical-sounding answers.)

May the peace of Christ be with you now and always.

Come Holy Spirit

When the time for Pentecost was fulfilled,
they were all in one place together.
And suddenly there came from the sky
a noise like a strong driving wind,
and it filled the entire house in which they were.
Then there appeared to them tongues as of fire,
which parted and came to rest on each one of them.
And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit
and began to speak in different tongues,
as the Spirit enabled them to proclaim.

Acts 2:1-4

This past semester, I took a course in Catechetics¬†which required me to read and summarize the entirety of the Catechism’s teaching on Christian prayer. ¬†I won’t tell you how long I procrastinated on the assignment, but I will tell you that, though strenuous, there is a great¬†richness of knowledge to be obtained by this manner of study. ¬†One of the most spiritually beneficial things I gained from it, however, was being reminded of just how integral and foundational the working of the Holy Spirit is in our life of personal prayer, and indeed our life as Christians on the whole.

The Holy Spirit has always been, to me, the most beguiling figure of the Holy Trinity. ¬†Often we hear or read the Father’s words to us in Scripture, and¬†the innate human tendency is to imagine a face to go with this voice, even if it’s nothing more than the stereotypical majestic and humongous old guy in a cloud. ¬†Christ Himself took on human form when He descended from heaven to proclaim the Kingdom to us. ¬†But the Holy Spirit? ¬†I rarely imagine Him as human. ¬†The imagery the Church has inherited¬†falls more along the lines of a dove, the wind, tongues of fire, an invisible, silent, but no less powerful or divine Spirit on whose behalf the Father speaks (Matthew 3:16-17). ¬†Not the kind of being we easily imagine ourselves having a relationship with.

But the Holy Spirit is, nonetheless, clearly important to our life of prayer, as St. Paul reminds us, “for we do not know how to pray as we ought, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with sighs too deep for words” (Romans 8:26). ¬†And, as we hear in the readings for this Sunday, “no one can say ‘Jesus is Lord’ except by the Holy Spirit” (1 Corinthians 12:3). “Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, which you have from God?” Paul asks us (1 Corinthians 6:19). ¬†This Holy Spirit is not some cosmic force we have to go wrangle or summon by some elaborate means every time we want to pray. ¬†The Spirit quite literally dwells within us, every moment of every day. ¬†This means, for one, that we ought to act like temples of the Holy Spirit. ¬†But it also means that we need never fear that God doesn’t hear our prayers. ¬†If He is within us, His ear is inclined much closer to our supplications than the Tempter might want us to believe.

If ever we need a reminder of just how powerful the Holy Spirit is in the life of the Church, we need only look back to the day on which it first received this Spirit and came into existence. ¬†This Spirit which dwells within us is the same Spirit which caused the believers in Jerusalem to speak in tongues. ¬†And not just in a couple different languages, but a pretty substantial bunch. ¬†This is the same Spirit that Christ promised would guide the Church “into all truth” (John 16:13). ¬†And it is the same Spirit we receive in Baptism, the Spirit who brings each new believer into life in Christ. ¬†It’s a lot to wrap one’s head around, but God does tend to be supremely generous in His goodness, so far beyond our wildest dreams, so far beyond our understanding, but still absolutely true.

Take a moment to thank God for the gift of His Holy Spirit which guides you in prayer this day.

Lectionary readings for Pentecost Sunday:
Acts 2:1-11 | 1 Cor. 3b-7, 12-13 | Jn. 20:19-33
You can find these all in one place here. ¬†Pax vobiscum. ¬†ūüôā

It’s Been Too Long

“It’s been what?”

“I said, it’s been too flippin’ long!” he shouted, shoving¬†the front door shut with vigor. ¬†He grimaced as he stepped over a pile of ideas, pausing halfway through to ensure the square of floor on the other side was devoid of rubbish. ¬†“Look at this place. ¬†Dust piled up on everything, lightbulbs burned out, mental images on the walls from when you were barely eighteen. ¬†A¬†high school student, mind you…”

“High school¬†graduate,” I replied. ¬†“Eighteen wasn’t really all that long ago. ¬†Not in the grand scheme of things, anyway.”

“Oh,¬†suuuuuuuuure. ¬†I’m starting to wonder if I should abandon my sarcasm for the sake of showcasing some appropriate sorrow for this sad state of affairs, but good grief! ¬†What a mess. ¬†Look there’s your room, over there beyond that dusty chandelier.”

“So there is. ¬†I used to complain about how messy it was,” I said.

He glanced back at me as though afraid to go on. ¬†“It’s gotten messier,” he said.

“Shut up.”

The structure was not a bad one.  The worst that could be said of it was that it was somewhat small.  I also thought it had a lot of corners, which made it hard to clean.   This, I admit, was a hunch perhaps biased by my dislike of mopping, but one born of a somwhat pointed wit nonetheless.

On the whole, the building had had brighter days, louder days, days that suffused the inhuman patterns of the woodgrain with candlelight and the silhouettes of pleasant companions and their laughter. ¬†For a moment, I regretted bringing along my pessimistic friend. ¬†The memory of these days held to prized a place in my heart for me to bear the thought of demolishing this little habitation and building a new one. ¬†But I needed an objective opinion. ¬†Every romantic needs a realist willing to pull them back down to Earth’s swiftly tilting surface now and again.

“I confess,” I added, “that if my room is a mess, the fault is entirely my own.”

“Yeah, that’s for sure,” he said. “Nothing that can’t be fixed though.” ¬†He turned to face me with more determination than he had exhibited since we stepped through the front door. ¬†“Honestly, tell me though: do you really want to go back to all this?”

I was silent for a second. ¬†“Why wouldn’t I?”

“Well, I just…” ¬†He hesitated. ¬†“Look at you. ¬†You’re a different man, aren’t you?”

“Am I?”

“You’ve gone through a whole year of college, you’ve made new friends, you’ve lived through¬†heartbreak, you’ve lived in another state… ¬†You’ve started growing up.” ¬†I shifted my gaze to the corner of the room opposite him, but he continued. ¬†“Doesn’t all this, all these pictures, all these memories, don’t they just tie your mind and heart down in the past?”

“Liggy,” I said, facing him again, “we are our pasts. ¬†What person could be who they are today without their past? ¬†It shapes who we are, how we deal with the present, how we plan for the future, for better or for worse.” ¬†He glanced around the room as I went on. ¬†“And for the most part, I consider this to have been one of the betters. ¬†Don’t you?”

“I do,” he replied, smiling gently. ¬†“But what if you don’t want to blog like you used to, anymore? ¬†What if what you need is a fresh start?”

“Then I shall have a fresh start on the foundation of the two years¬†of blogging I’ve already had. ¬†I don’t need a new blog to do that. ¬†And when we flip on the lights again, no one from the past is obliged to stick around. ¬†But I sincerely hope they will, if they’re still in town.”

“Yeah,” said Liggy. ¬†“So do I. ¬†I’ve missed that bunch…”

“We’d better start cleaning up, hadn’t we?” I said.

He chuckled. ¬†“We better not put it off, that’s for sure.”

“Would you do the honors?” I asked.

“Sure,” he said. ¬†And with that, he strolled over to the panel by the front door and pressed the big red button. ¬†It had to be red. ¬†I don’t think I could have had it any other way. ¬†(Excepting¬†the time it broke and I had to put a yellow button on it for a week because they were sold out of red at the button store, but that is a story for another time.)

It started with an almost inaudible click, and then slowly, almost suspensefully, the sign out front flickered to life, and the chandelier began to throw light across the dusty room.

“Might need to replace some of the fuses out front, but you can still read it, anyway,” he laughed. ¬†Caught somwhere between a swift walk and a run, I ventured outside and turned to look, smiling as I did.

There it was, same as ever: “Welcome to The Window Philosopher | Open for visitors”.

To anyone out there reading this, hi, and it’s good to see you. ¬†ūüôā

Four Witnesses: A Book Review

Four Witnesses | Rod Bennett
Ignatius Press (2002)

Imagine: living among the first Christians.¬† What must that have been like?¬† How must it have felt to hear the preaching of Peter or Paul or encounter a passerby who knowingly traced the symbol of a fish in the dust at their feet?¬† How terrifying, when the Roman persecution of those professing the name of Christ began in earnest? Continue reading “Four Witnesses: A Book Review”

Twilight / Dawn

Thus turns the world to sleep
Like the thoughts, revolving
Behind my eyelids
                  I see you, there
And I shut them so much the tighter
For I hear a thousand voices
Intone so bright a chord
I know I could never quite dance
Suitably, to such a song.
Thus I clench my fists around
Every word
           and they fall,
Broken, to circumstance
And to some future skyline,
Forgotten like a picture book.
How could I ever dream of days
Filled with anything but despair
And false wells to drown in
Except...  You.
                 All,
                 except for You.
You are
        a singularity,
                      a ray: simplicity
Ebullient and towering and glorious
And altogether baffling
For countless are the days
I've spent, floundering in puddles
Of my own design, silencing
The whispered corners of my mind.
Still,
       even now
You do not forsake me
And still,
           the words I claim are rubble
They all will fade to retrospect
As dust, beside You.
                     Heard softly,
Your words are all that I shall ever need.

Not the prettiest type in the world, but until I find a better way to preserve the structure, it’ll suffice. ¬†ūüôā

Ooh, I need a song to leave y’all with, don’t I… ¬†So here’s a song about the Transfiguration. ¬†Because, why not have a song about the Transfiguration? ¬†So there you go. ¬†And it’s pretty.

Good old Sufjan never lets us down…

I hope that wherever you may be this evening, dear reader, that you are feeling the peace and joy of Christ that thaws every winter into spring. ¬†(Maybe it won’t for a little longer if you’re up north. ¬†But He will. ¬†Just you wait. ¬†ūüėČ

Peace to you, now and always.  Stay classy.